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balance (2): another version of easy life

Thursday, April 30, 2009

another version of easy life

i sort of forgot that i came back to colorado 5 years ago to work- i was just reading back through old blog entries and was amused at my grumpy moaning from that time. 5 years ago i wasn't jaded by thailand yet, hadn't lived a 3rd world life long enough to appreciate the things america has to offer. i was also working in denver, which is a very depressing and conservative town compared to boulder, and working at a stuffy corporation rather than a creative agency. i have grown up quite a bit since that time too! anyway, i am not bitter to have come back this time around, maybe because i did so by choice rather than necessity. i am actually rather happy for now- i catch myself whistling a lot and making friendly conversation with random people in passing (definitely not my normal self!). i think somewhere tame and comparatively "nice" is what i needed at this point- i didn't write too much about it but a lot of the past year in thailand was rather traumatic in some ways!... though it has only been a week and it won't be long until the comparative tedium of this life hits me and i start to miss all that drama and my crazy collection of friends in asia.

it's nice to wake up and make coffee while i listen to NPR. i walk across the creek to the bus stop, booing at squirrels and picking flowers. the thin air feels healthier than the thick, heavy air of the tropics. it snowed the other day and i stopped to watched my breath steam for about 5 minutes straight, shivering deliciously. i read the paper on the bus, with listings of all the fun things i want to do while i am here (if i ever manage to stop being lazy and/or meet some interesting people to hang with- my old friends by the way are not an option as they have become old, fat and conservative, and are all still living within a mile of the high school we went to). my office is a huge, sleek warehouse. people bring their dogs in to work (and i spent more time than is normal chasing them down to pet). thankfully, it is not full of "lawnmower people" as my friend and i refer to them (people who have nothing better in their lives to be excited about than their new lawnmowers), though they are still a bit more suburban-american than i would like (need a side trip to NY). still, they are friendly and energetic, and they all seem to be really good at what they do (rather than the incompetent morons of jobs past). i am handling the microsoft account, which is cool i guess. i don't mind being busy. i try to make sense of the chaos and translate it to deliverables, listening to my iPod to drown out the stupid jokes of my silly neighbors. i might be able to handle this awhile... i am certainly in no hurry to get back to thailand for now (even though i am paying rent on a house there still and my twin/boyfriend of sorts is begging me to call him).

let's see... i certainly am not gonna settle. but maybe there is some room in my life for normality too. after all, the title of this blog is 'balance', is it not?

april snow(!) from my balcony

april flowers on my street


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