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balance (2): what to do

Tuesday, February 8, 2005

what to do

my plan for bangkok was to get educated in something which i can fall back on to make some kind of living. i signed 'o' up for the thai massage course at wat po (to his delight), which gets him out of my hair until i decide what to do with him, but i am not entirely sure what i am going to do with myself. i had planned to get certified as a yoga instructor, but the one place in bangkok that offers classes refuses to teach me because i am a beginner (?!) and the only other place that offers classes (coincidentally on ko phangan) is full until next year. i am quite disappointed at this fact, as it leaves me only english teaching as an option. in fact, i am starting to get cold feet about staying in bangkok. when i made the decision to stay in thailand it was based on the offer in thong nai pan to build up my friend’s bar, which i thought i could do legally. barring that option, i am not sure i am willing to live a 9-5 existence working for $500 a month in this lovely but simultaneously putrid city. i put out a few feelers for web work, and have sold some things on ebay which might keep me afloat, but overall it’s coming back around to the same question- quality of life or money? are they intrinsically linked or can they be separated?

well, for now i have nowhere else to go. after a spontaneous search online for jobs in the US i was surprised to find they are abundant right now- however i much prefer a life of drudgery in bangkok to a life of drudgery in the US. i am gambling with myself that the risk is worth taking, and my horoscope for the chinese new year (tomorrow marks the year of the rooster) says every aspect of my life will be drenched in good fortune this year, including an impending financial windfall. that is laughably doubtful but i am still crossing my fingers.

1 Comments:

Blogger Becky said...

I just stumbled upon your page a week ago, but I have read a lot of it in that time. I myself am moving to Thailand in 4 months to get away from the tedium of US life. I am encouraged by your bravery and gumption (I feel like I learned that word from my Grandpop). Anyway. Good luck with whatever you decide to do. For myself, I just keep in mind that I am only young once, and at the end of the day I will probably end up back in the US (even if it is 20 years from now!) so I may as well live it up somewhere else now. Maybe we'll end up running into each other someday in Thailand! -Rebecca

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